How I got here

It's no secret, just like 99% of all women, I have struggled with my weight for years.  I have tried every diet...Atkins, weight watchers, South beach, fasting, no carbs, all carbs, you name it, I've tried it. I also have been on Diet pills for the better part of my teen years and adulthood. Phentermine was my drug of choice.  Sadly, in the long run, they've done more harm then good. Sure, they helped me lose 60 pounds at one point but as soon as I went off of them I gained it all back and more.  I think diet pills have done a lot of damage to my natural metabolism and in return have made it harder for me to lose weight.  Ironic, isn't it?  Don't even get me started on the rapid heart beat and heart palpitations I would have from it. Yikes!  

About 2 and a half years ago I was in the process of losing weight, with Phentermine, and was down to about 158. I am 5'3 and I have a curvy build.  158 puts me in about a size 8.  I was feeling good with my new weight loss but I was only eating about one meal a day because the phen makes food almost make you sick, which I thought was awesome at the time because It was helping me not want to eat.  When I did eat, it was crap. I was the poster child for losing weight the wrong way.  I did exercise a lot because I had a lot of energy from the medicine but your health is 80% food and only 20% from exercise. So, I wasn't healthy at all looking back now.  Around this same time my mom passed away suddenly and tragically.  I have been eating my feelings ever since. It's not even a conscious habit.  I do it without even realizing it.  My sister had pointed out a few times that she thought this is what was happening but in my mind I had dealt with and was healing from my moms passing just fine, so it didn't make sense to me. Not until now.   I had and probably still have a lot of built up emotion about it and food calmed that anxiety.  Now, I'm trying to refocus those emotions on doing things that will help me instead of harm me.  

At the beginning of this year I suffered a miscarriage and then had another one in August.  Hello comfort food!!  I'm ok with the miscarriages because I know now that I was not physically or mentally ready to be a mother.  I need to get ME ready first before I am given the responsibility of raising, nurturing, teaching and feeding another life.  I am well trained in rolling with the punches.  I KNOW without a shadow of a doubt that whatever happens, good or bad, is for the greater good in the long fun.  I don't follow any particular religion but I have a serious spiritual relationship with the creator, I choose to call it God, and I know that only the best is in store for me.

I have accepted these hardships as blessings and I am sooo ready to turn it around.  I have cellulite, bumps, rolls, and stretch marks but I take those things for what they are, acknowledge them, and am ready to move on.  I can't wait for this wild ride!  

I'm feeling so good today!  I was able to slide my wedding rings on with ease this morning.  Things are happening!!  

I hope each and every oneof you have a great weekend, stay warm, and do something that makes you feel good!  

I will talk to you next week!  

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Here's a picture of me and my love about 2 weeks before my sweet mom passed away. I was about 158/160ish here. 

Here is me, my husband and my mom. 

Love you momma.